Saturday, April 29, 2006

I not only am the perfect mom, I play one on TV.

Things have actually slowed down a notch due to the fact that my husband is sick in bed with a 103 fever and almost uncontrollable chills. He is really sick. This happens once every 5 years or so. Getting a high fever freaks him out because when he was 18 he almost died from a fever seizure. He is looking better this morning than he did at 3 am.

I cannot figure this sickness out. Mark had it first. It was off and on for 4 days. Only really showing itself in the afternoon. He could be just fine with no fever all morning and have a 102 fever at 4 that afternoon. He has been OK for 2 or 3 days now, so I think he is over it.

But Gabriel started Wednesday evening. He was sick until Thurday evening when he was looking much better. Friday he looked great. No aches. No fever. No dragging tiredness. For a whole 24 hours. Until 9:30 last night. What sickness is on and off like that??

I thankfully haven't gotten any of it. I don't want it either. I feel tired from nursing my poor hubby last night, but fine otherwise.

With the house to myself, I think I will start my second template finally. I keep wanting to, but just posting and visiting taking up most of Mark's nap.

Friday, April 28, 2006

I have been accepted.

First order of business is that I finaly got someone to accept my bid to rent their blog. Actually 2 someones. My Life In The Kid Zoo and Infertility Drama. Both are really fun ladys. Don't be unfriendly. Go and say "HI!!!".

I am thrilled because I haven't heard back from the clinic. How often are you happy to not get a return call?? But this means that I am not gestational diabetic. I am so thrilled. Doing my happy dance. Well, ok not really. But if I didn't feel like a beached whale I probably would. My mom had ges. diabetis with all her pregnancies and it is genetic. Plus with Mark, I came close. I was so worried that I would have to restrict and watch my diet. And that blows. I have to do that when I am trying to loose weight. I don't want to do that while I am gaining weight.

We got Mark's hair cut this morning. It was SOOOO long. I don't have a pic of the new do yet because he had to go down for a nap. But hopefully I will have one for you within the next day or two.

I had coffee this morning. Beautiful, wonderful, sweet cup of coffee. I haven't made any since Gabriel has been off of work. I got a new flavor of creamer yesterday --- Hershey's Caramal. Mmm. Plus we had half a squirt of whipping cream left from ice cream sundays. That went on top and melted in, just like the coffe house. My glorious fake latte. Just heavenly.

I got some new cookbooks from the library to browse. 4 of them by Racheal Ray. I got through a third of one last night while watching CSI. After I put the book down I saw that I have a bazillion bookmarks in already. I am dying to make something with shrimp. I LOVE shrimp and I haven't had them in a long time.

It is a beautiful spring day outside. We stopped at some garage sales this morning on our way home and found some good deals. Maybe we will go out this afternoon again.

Off for visiting. Thanks to all the great comments and posts from you all recently!! You rock.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Blogrollin', rollin', rollin'

Have you ever noticed that all of our blogrolls are eternally linked together? I try to find different ways to visit new blogs and search out my next best friends. But I always end up finding blogs randomly that link to 2 or more of my blogroll.

Not that there is a problem with co-linking. Linking is a great way to advertise your favorite reads. But I am wondering, do we all have the same tastes and likes in blogs? Or is the world of mommy blogs that small? There are all these interlocking circles of webrings and rent-a-blog and blogrolls. It just boggles my mind. Are we part of a big unnamed, unknown club?

Maybe I should save myself a lot of run-around and just systematically go through everyone's blogroll. Does that make me a friend chaser? You know that women who can't find her own friends and just clings to everyone else's friends. The one that no one wants to invite to the party, but can't not invite.

More and more I wonder if the world of blogging mamas is that small. Have we already made a full circle in the convention room?

I like especially to befriend newbie mama bloggers because I know how hard it can be to start out. You write faithfully. You comment on other peoples blogs. You tru to understand the tags and coding and new internet langauge. You may even bring out the voodoo dolls. But surfing blogs tend to just pass you by.

Ha, it ain't even that easy for a somewhat experienced *cough, cough, me* blogger to gain daily readers. I do have all of you that are so loyal. You know who you are and I love you guys this big! But to try and gain another is like trying to interview for a job. So how do blogs like Daring Young Mom and So the fish said... get a daily comment rate of 40-50+ ?? Are they truely that much better at writing that the rest of us? Or is it just luck and years of blog hopping?

I don't get it and the more I think about it, it more tangled it becomes. This isn't important like 'let's cure cancer'. But has the web of linkees and linkers ever amazed you?

Maybe I am just amazed easily.

While we are on the subject of blogrolls, what is polite? I got tired of several links that I had where I would comment daily and be ever so faithful, but I never got so much as a link or one visit. So I deleted them. I am not saying they had to link me just because I linked them. But a visit would have been nice. I realize that we are all busy and we pick and choose our favorite sites, friends, priorities, etc. But enough is enough. I am busy also. I used to like reading those blogs, but being completely ingored isn't cool.

How do you choose your blogroll linkees? Do you read everyone's blog when they update, daily or less than daily? Is there too much of a good thing?

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Have you ever...

Things are busy, busy, busy. I have wasted most of my on-line time visted. Well, not wasted... I have so much crap to do yet today, but I wanted to post before I bid my adoiu to the internet. I have so many good topics floating in my brain, stewing away, just waiting for me to post about. But not today...

So I stole this from Pam. Good filler. That is what it was for her too.

Have you ever....
Taken a picture naked? : no
Made out with a member of the same sex? : no
Danced in front of your mirror? : yes
Told a lie? : yes
Gotten in a car with people you just met?: yes
Been in a fist fight? : no
Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? : yes
Been arrested? : no
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? : yes
Seen someone die? : yes
Kissed a picture? : yes
Slept in until 3? : not quite
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? : yes
Played dress up? : yes
Fallen asleep at work? : yes
Had sex at work? : no
Felt an earthquake? : no
Touched a snake? : yes (eww)
Ran a red light? : yes
Been in a car accident? : yes
Pole danced? : no
Been lost? : yes
Sang karaoke? : no
Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? : yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? : yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? : yes
Kissed in the rain? : yes
Sang in the shower? : yes
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? : yes
Sat on a roof top? : yes
Played chicken? : no
Raised chickens? : no
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? : yes
Been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? : no
Broken a bone? : no
Mooned/flashed someone? : yes
Forgotten someone’s name? : yes
Slept naked? : yes
Blacked out from drinking? : no
Played a prank on someone? : yes
Felt like killing someone? : no
Made a parent cry? : yes
Cried over someone? : yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? : yes
Had/Have a dog? : no
Been in a band? : no
Drank 25 sodas in a day? : yes
Shot a gun? : yes

Give it a try?

Monday, April 24, 2006

I have my first tenant

Over the weekend I joined Blog Explosion. Mostly because I wanted to get into the whole rent-a-blog get up. I set my blog up for rent Saturday evening. Within 2 hours or so I had recieved 3 offers. Pretty cool, huh? I wasn't sure if I was going to take the first bidder ot wait out for one I really liked. Normally I am not into political or spiritual blogs, but my first tenant's title caught my eye, ...In The Outer - Not your mama's religion and spirituality blog. How could that not catch your eye? Besides, this is all about meeting new and interesting blogs. So, GO! Check him out.

In other breaking news, I had another prenatal this morning. We decided to try switching our appointments from the afternoons to mornings, after we waited almost 2 hours for our last appointment. Today was my diabetis screening, which means I got to have that milkshake thick orange soda for breakfast.

Speaking of milkshakes, my blender has been on the fritz. I am not sure what is wrong with it. The motor works fine but when you blend things it gets all bogged down and overworked. (BTW, I am not over filling or overworking it. It can't handle puny jobs.) So I looked up the manuel for troubleshooting. Did you know that you are supposed to buy separately and use a special blade for milkshakes and another for crushing ice????? Tell me this. What do you use a blender for besides smoothies, milkshakes, and margaritas? Why must you buy a special blade to do these things?!?!?

Mark is acting weird the past 24 hours or so. He has been crabby and crying for no real reason. It isn't like how he acts for teething, so I don't think that is the problem. (Although, it could be.) He acts overtired all the time. Mornings are his best and happiest times, but not this morning. I even put him down for a nap before 10 am!!

I am getting itchy to try another layout. I don't really want to change mine yet. I just want to get coding again. I have all these big dreams but they are so slow moving.

I used a really great recipe for roast beef on Sunday. I used an oven bag. I LOVE using oven bags. Everything just turns out better. Anywho, here is the recipe.

1 large oven bag
1/4 cup flour
1 14oz can beef broth
1 envelope onion soup mix
3-4 lb beef roast
8-10 baby red potatoes, halved OR 3-5 medium red potatoes, quartered
1 onion, sliced
16 oz bag of baby carrots

Preheat oven to 350. Shake flour in bag and place bag in baking pan with the open side of bag out the wide side of pan. Add broth and soup mix. Sqeeze bag to blend flour well. Add the beef, turning to coat with sauce. Place potatoes, onion, and carrots in bag arround beef. Close bag with nylon tie and cut 6 slits on top of bag. Bake for 2 1/2 - 3 hours. Makes 7-9 servings.

It turned out wonderful. Very tender and flavorful with it's own gravy ready to go.

I am out now to check up on all of you!

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Can't think if a good title, so you get this instead.

We didn't go on a date. It ended up that when Gabriel and his brother got home, they had already made plans to send him home yesterday evening. I was rather let down. We all went to take him back and visit with Grandma and Grandpa. Everyone decided that it would be a good idea to go out for a fish fry, so we did end up doing something fun last night anyway. I over ate at the buffet. You know how you feel just full and stop, but 30 minutes later you are so over full you want to puke? OK, gross. We had a really good time and Mark was a doll. He has been so good the past week. He has been staying up way past his bed time for one reason or another and been so good about it. Not crabby or anything. And when we get home he runs to his bedroom to get his pajamas on. So cute.

I still want to go out on a date. Like a just the 2 of us date. I will have to see what I can come up with.

Gabriel will still be laid off next week, we think. Work is looking slow.

Right now the house is quiet. It hasn't been silent in over a week. Mark is down for his nap. Gabriel is still sleeping in. He has been working so hard and not getting much sleep. So I didn't have the heart to wake him up this morning. He needs to re-coop after spending 3 days busting his butt to re-roof the garage. His muscles have been so sore. I hope he feels better today.

It is the weekend. Yay, for the weekend. The family get together is at our house this week. I think that I will make a beef roast. I am usually leary of beef roast, because I can never make it turn out good. Does anyone have any good ideas or recipes for beef roast?

Up and down every 8 minutes. It is driving me bonkers. I can't concentrate enough to post about anything exciting. Why, you ask? Well, I guess I have a good trade off. I am making Chocolate Chip Cookies. Mmm. Want one?

Friday, April 21, 2006

The Drug Lady

I have been so lost without my routine. My without a fail daily posts have been rather sporadic and further between. Gabriel went out this morning to work for the neighbor who owns a lawn business. It is nice to have a breather to myself. I love my husband alot, but the past week with rushing to finish the garage and such has been hard. I want a day off. I want a day off with my husband. Oo, really big idea. I love how ideas come to me as I am typing. Gabriel's brother is spending Spring Break (this week) with us to help with the projects. Maybe tonight or tomorrow night he can babysit after I put Mark to bed and Gabriel and I can go out on a date. I will have to bring that up when they get back.

The drug presentation the other night was really interesting. It was put on by a lady who works for the heath center as a mentor and counselor for kids who use drugs. She is a lady after my own heart. You need back ground on this one.
See when I was out of high school, I didn't know if I wanted to go to college or if I did for what. I knew that I wanted to be a SAHM. Please don't send me nasty comments on feminism and how I set myself up for disaster blah, blah, blah. I never wanted a big career. Maybe a cool big job, but my big goal was to be a mommy in my own time. This was when I was dating Gabriel. It was fall and I was too late for registrations. I would have to wait until Spring. That February 14, Gabriel proposed and we got married on August 30 (remind me to tell this story sometime, it is pretty cool). If I went to school, I wanted to finish before I had babies. Since my whole goal was to have school and a job until I was pregnant, it didn't make much sense to start school now. I have no regrets and as crazy as my life is, I am happier by far than if I had a big career and no kids.
BUT, if things had turned out different I would have gone to school for counseling and mentoring specializing in teen suicide. I had many messed up friends in high school. Depression, teen pregnancies, sex problems, alcohol, drugs, all the stuff you hear about. In high school, I personally talked one of my friends out of suicide twice.
This women was speaking about drug problems and trends in our county and what she sees on the streets herself. She spoke about the kids specifically and their problems and how to help them. I totally got it. I understand why people do drugs. I understand that the people aren't the menace to society. And eliminating all the drugs won't help the problem. They hurt. They are depressed. They are unhappy. They just want to make it go all away for a little bit. I felt so moved by her speech.
However, they sad part is that I was one of a handful of people in the room who got it. From the questions asked afterward, most people walked away from it thinking those stupid kids and what a big mess they are to the community. It just angers me so. These kids need and actually want help. Starting drugs is a cry for help or to heard. They don't need to be looked down upon further by people who are supposed to be supporting and helping them.
On a lighter side, most of the presentation was what to look for and smell for on a accident scene. Since this was for the Firefighters and First Responders. She brought actually paraphinalia that she bought undercover in town to show how it can be hidden. She showed pictures of popular pills and how they are hidden. I really enjoyed to whole thing.

Last night we had a couple and their daughter over for dinner. We haven't seen these people in many years and it was so nice. The husband used to be my best friend post-high school.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Tagging reveled

Life has been nuts. Gabriel has off this week. He is taking advantage of it by replacing the garage roof. He started Monday with his brother, but he had to go home yesterday afternoon. Now Gabriel is on a rush to get it finished before the rain that is supposed to be here by this evening.
When Gabriel's routine is disrupte, so is mine. I like him being home, but my schedule is out the window.

Tonight there is a talk on drugs by a county expert at Gabriel's FF/FR meeting. Spouses are welcome to come to this one, so we both will be going. It should be interesting. Gabriel is all excited about me coming. I am not sure what aspects of drugs and drug use the woman will be talking about, but I hear that she gives an amazing presentaion.

I am all excited because Hamburger Helper is on sale for $0.90 this week! The only thing that can rival is when I get a coupon in the mail for $2.50 off diapers. I know, I need help.

I have been tagged by a bunch of friends over the weekend for the meme that has been circulating. These are the great gals that I could remember (sorry!).
Pajama Mama
Sunshine Scribe
I guess my curse is to try to come up with 6 bizarre things that you never knew about me and probably won't want to to know after you read them. A pretty tall order. Also I am supposed name other people to tag, but you know what, I'm not going to. Almost everyone I read regularly has done this already. So if you are reading this and haven't already done it YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED! Haha, suckers.

1) I lived in Milwaukee until high school when we moved up to the northern area of Wisconsin. From when I was 9 until we moved I was into competive swimming and I rocked. I even qualified for the State meets 3 years in a row. Swimming was my one true love. I can't do any other sports.
2) I have the bad luck to not be able to swallow if I have to laugh. More times that I can count I have spewed soda all over. One of those times was at the Christmas dinner table at grandma's house. I was 7.
3) I can move my pinky toe completely separate from the rest of my foot. I have not found anyone else who can do that.
4) When I was in high school, I worked at the local greenhouse. I accidentally hit the wrong buttom on the register and over charged my own grandma by $150. She didn't notice right away and I didn't notice until I closed up and came across the copy recipt by chance. I had to go to the owner's house in person and explain what I did and ask for the money back, hoping it wouldn't have to come out of my paycheck. And then I had to explain everything to my grandma, who was very relieved. It is my most embarrassing monent and still huants me.
5) I love shrimp. Espsecially chilled cocktail shrimp dipped in sour cream. Yum, I can taste it now.
6) My pinky fingers are bent at a 45 degree angle at the top knuckle. It isn't painful and it doesn't interfer with my normal activities. It is a genetic thing.

The little old lady that lives next door just stopped by to give us a dish of potato salad that she made up just for us because we like it. She didn't just put some in a cool whip container. She put garnish and eggs cut up pretty on top and sprinkled the top with paprika. She is so nice.


Monday, April 17, 2006

Post-Easter sugar crash

We had a nice Easter. Nothing too exciting. We spent the day with Gabriel's family. I bought Peeps just for Mark because that was the only candy I figured he could handle. Besides, everyone loves Peeps. He HATED them. Well, at least it didn't go over as well as I hoped. He licked the yellow sugar off . Then he tried a bite of marshmallow and spit it out. That was that.
Grandma had some mini chocolate bars, so he had a mini Mounds. That he liked so much that we had to hide the chocolate because he wanted it all.

I have been working for the past week on this new layout. I coded it myself, but I don't know if I did it right or not. Let me know if it looks all wonky. I checked it with Firefox and IE on my computer and it looks OK. I still have to get all my personalized sidebar stuff up. So please be patient. I didn't delete your link. :)

I tried to validate the code through W3C, but because Blogger uses all those non-standard tags for posting and comments, it failed validation. I don't know if 1) I coded XHTML wrong, 2) it is just Blogger's tags and there is nothing I can do about it, or 3) if I used Bloggers tags incorrectly. How important is checking validation, anyway?

I have so much sewing I need to get done. I have 5 little projects that I want to finish today. The biggest one is a bag to store our down comforter in. Last year I just stored it in the plastic zipper bag it came in. But when I went to get it in the fall, it was yellowed and smelled like ass. REALLY bad. It needed to be deep cleaned. So I want to make a cloth bag so it can breath. I can't just put it in the closet folded because uncompressed it takes up over half of it.

I don't really have any other thoughts to share today. Taking 4 days off from blogging has really thrown a curve ball in my thinking process. I missed you all. It will probably take a few days to catch up with reading and visiting.


Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Randomness once again

Last night Gabriel had a demonstration with the other dept. Firefighters and First Responders for the boy scouts. They do this every year. He took Mark with him, leaving me almost 2 glorious hours by myself. What did I do with this time? I washed the kitchen floor, made tomorrows lunches, cleaned up after dinner, and sat down to watch "It the Easter Beagle, Charlie Brown". Exciting stuff, huh? I went to pick up Mark at bedtime. The demonstration didn't end until 9, so I did have the rest of the evening free and to myself.
I finished my HTML book, and feel really confident and comfortable with basic coding. I started a template, but I forgot about the 100 Blogger tags for the posting and commenting. So really all I got done was try to learn those and get that part set. The good news, I think, is that once I get the blogger tags set, I should be able to use that as a start for every template. I shouldn't have to retype or configure it all each time. I guess I won't know until I get into it further. I did realize after finishing the how-to book how bad my understanding of coding was before hand. So I have made real progress.

Mark and Gabriel had a blast at the demonstration. Mark was only there for the first part which was the first aid part. One of the First Responders was showing cpr on a manikin. Afterwards she wanted volunteers to try it. Without prompting Mark walked up to the manikin, put his head on the chest (like to listen for breathing), pinched it's nose and blow into it's mouth.
Daddy was SOOO proud. He was just tickled pink for the rest of the night. Gabriel kept telling me the story over and over. He has pictures on his cell phone, but I don't know how to get them onto the computer. I know that we can e-mail them, but to connect our phones to the internet is like $1 a minute. We don't use the cells for internet use anyway, so that is fine.

Mark is really tired today. He slept in until 8! Somedays he is up at 6:30. And then he was acting tired and cranky already at 10. The naps and such are fine by me. I can get more done when he isn't 'helping me'. Before he went down for a nap, he helped me clean the fish tank. Meaning I cleaned it while he watched nicely and every now and then tried to throw something in the bucket of water.

I had to finally take out the barbell in my naval. My belly is stretching too big. Hopefully I will be able to keep a ring in. I am afraid that it will try to close up if I take it out for good. Some women can keep a naval ring in for the whole pregnancy, as long as it is big enough to give with the stretching. It helps that I am an innie. This is my 3rd pregnancy and I had never had my belly button 'pop'. You see some women who are 12 weeks and their belly button sticks out a half inch. Not me, thankfully. I really need to get a current picture to post.

Pretty random stuff again today. I will be giving up blogging tomorrow and Friday (Maunday Thursday and Good Friday). It will be very hard, but I should. I will be back Saturday, and next week will be normal again.

In case I don't see you (metaphorically speaking) before Sunday,
Have a Happy Easter, Everybody!!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

This is my town

Sunshine Scribe had a very interesting post today about how she started up her blog and came about her blogger name. It inspired me to write about my own experiences and blog title. I had planned on just leaving her a note in comments, but it would have been so freaking long. So now you get to hear about too. Hehe, aren't you lucky?

I started blogging 2 years ago. I started my on-line experience with a memorial site for Daniel after he was born too early. The friends I made had blogs and encouraged me to start one. I had no clue how to do anything on the internet. I started a journal with Bravenet. I made the mistake originally of filling out my full name in information they requested, thus my real name floated for awhile. I also never thought about security or worried about it back then. Because of all this, I have always gone by my real first name, Stephanie. I supposed one day I may changed all our names to nicknames, but now why? Sometimes I used to and still do go by Stephanie, daniels_mommy or just daniels_mommy. That used to be my IM name and it stuck.

If you didn't choose a blog title, Bravenet defaulted to name your blog YourFirstName's Journal. So originally I was Stephanie's Journal. Pretty boring, huh? I just came up with "Expressions of Love" one day. I wasn't planning on changing my title, it just came to me. No one else I had seen had that name. I thought it was quite fitting.

About a month or two ago I switched to Blogger for the freedom to change my layout, add links, ect. that I didn't have at Bravenet.Unfortunity you can't upload archives to Blogger, so I kind of lost those 2 years. Today I am just going to delete my old blog. Nobody really reads archives anyway. That will erase all traces of my full name if there are any left.

With Blogger I wanted to keep the names and title that everyone knew. I tried for expressionsoflove.blogspot, expressions_of_love.blogspot, and expressions-of-love.blogspot. All were taken. So bummer, there are at least 3 other Blogger site titled "Expressions of Love". It kind of makes me feel unoriginal. I thought about changing the title, but why? This has always been my title. That is what people know me by. I have always wondered if I was one of the first blogs to use that name or not.

There is an It is a wedding needs site. If you google "Expressions of Love" you get 27,100,000 sites. Most of them are sites for wedding stationary or other wedding needs. Another big group are quotes from serious writers who publish their work online. Mostly stuff about relationships and marriage. My old Bravenet blog comes in at #9 which is the first page and not too shabby. This blog comes in at #13 which isn't too bad either.

Some blogs have such clever nicknames, domain names, and titles. It makes me jealous for being so boring.

I have been meaning to get a better pic for my profile. It is weird how I never have any pictures of me. So I googled "crazy" in images and found some neat stuff to use. This is the one I went with. TTFN

Monday, April 10, 2006

2 day withdrawals

Hey I haven't posted for 2 days! Argg! Sundays I never post. It is like family day. I take the day off from browsing the internet. And this Saturday was just busy and kind of more family time. Gabriel had off the weekend. In fact, he work normal 8 hours days last week. So weird. But nice.
Saturday Gabriel summerized the Goldwing. I won't be able to ride it this year. This past few years it has sadly feel by the wayside. Maybe this year Gabriel can ride with Steven a little.
After that Gabriel, Mark and I went shopping at Fleet Farm. I got some seeds and a indoor greenhouse to start my seedlings. The only plants I need to get from the actual greenhouse are some flowers and 1 tomatoe plant. I am trying to plant everything from seeds to cut on costs. We are going to have beans, beets, carrots, spinach, zucchini, summer squash, tomatoes, and peppers. I am also putting in a herb garden where I used to put annual flowers. That should cut on costs too. Although I am ahead of myself here. Planting season doesn't start here until later May or even into June. We have at least a month to go.

It is Holy Week already. Where did the time go? I started Lent thinking "Lent lasts forever" and here we are a spit away from Easter. I had better start planning for Good Friday services and buy my Easter candy! LOL

Woot! This is way cool. I am one of the 3 finalists in Mama M's dessert recipe contest. She is now taking votes for the winner in her comments. So everyone go now, vote. I can't remember the last time I was a finalist in anything. Actually I have a faint memory of winning a teddy bear for a store coloring contest, but I was like 5!

Today should be pretty easy. I have laundry to do (I do it once a week, every Monday). But other than that the house is clean and organized from yesterday. I do need to figure out what I should make for dinner. We should go outside again too. It is so beautiful out.


Friday, April 07, 2006

Today is better

Yesterday was just a bad day. Mood swinging galore. I feel better today but this sinus headache just popped up. I have been getting alot of headaches recently. It is annoying.

Mark and I have been playing outside alot now that it is nicer. We actually went for a walk down the block the other day to hand out fliers. He made it all the way down, but I had to carry him back. He picked and handed me every rock and twig along the way. Today and tomorrow are cold though. Highs only in the low 40's. So I hope that he won't ask me to go out this afternoon.

I have been starting to plan our annual block party. Every year since we moved here we have thrown a huge party. The first year it was just a home warming that 60 people came to. Last year we invited almost 100 people (hehe, we were smarter and held it when it warmer and outside) BUT only 20 people showed. That was a disappointment. You try to plan a party and food for 70 or so guests and have only 20 show.
Normally we have it in the fall. But with Abby coming in August, we desided to have it late spring/early summer. That way we can have it outside too. We are also down scaling. We used to invite the whole block plus friends, buddies from work, family, etc. This year it is just going to be the block plus a handful of close friends. I haven't made the final guest list yet. Also the main cause of last year's failure was that everyone had commitments or went on vacation. So we picked 5 possible dates and are getting feed back from the rest of the neighbors to avoid that. It will probably be sometime in June.
I love the planning and hosting. I find it to be rather like a game. It is all about the stratigies. The part I am not good at is mingling with the crowd. I am more of a wall flower.
The past 2 years we didn't have any games, other than having a volley ball net out, kick ball, bubbles, ect. We never used to have any kids on the block either. This year there are 3 elementary school kids, 3 middle school kids, and Mark. I should probably plan something for them, but I don't have a friggin clue what. Any ideas?

Oo, I almost forgot to mention. I got Firefox to work. The first 3 times that I downloaded it, for some reason it quit before the download was finished but said that it had finished. I would only get like 3.7 MB of the 4.9MB. Oddly enough, when I figured it out was 5 minutes before the full download completed. And I didn't change anything from the first 3 times. Weird, huh? Anywho, I have Firefox and IE. IE is still my default browser and the one I am using now actually. At least until I learn more about how Fx works and how the security benefits work. We get an accelarator with People PC (our ISP) and a pop-up blocker. So I think those should still work with Fx. However we use an extra program for spyware which chews up alot of resources. I would love to be able to just browse the internet without it.


Thursday, April 06, 2006

I hate stupid people.

I have had one of the worst mornings that I have had in a long time. I don't think that it was other circumstances, it was probably just me. Today was grocery day. Mark was driving me nuts. He didn't want to sit in the cart. He didn't want to walk the same direction as me. He was tired and cranky which made me tired and cranky. He chewed through a yogurt cup and got it all over himself.

I am so tired of stupid people parading around as jackassses. I am sick of people cutting line right in front of me at the bank even though I am 6 months pregnant and have a toddler with me. I am sick of trying to convince the stock boy that it is his job to check if they have more whatever. I am sick of having him tell me they are out only to find a huge display of it 20 minutes later across the store. I am so sick of people giving my kids things to eat at banks and such. The balloons Mark gets from the grocery store are weighted down by suckers and no amount of hiding can keep them from him. I am sick of standing in line forever holding a stack of books and Mark's hand while they are training a new librarian and refuse to open another line.

After our last errand was finished I just bawled in the car before I could take off. I needed to release or I was going to explode.

I should be putting the groceries away or taking a nap rather than going on-line. I should be trying harder to relax while Mark is down for his nap, but I am too wound up. I hate stupid people. I hate that on days like today it is almost impossible for me to carry a diaper bag, receipt, balloon and Mark's hand at the same time. I wish someone would answer the door and stop the pounding in my head.

Now if you'll excuse me, I am going to have my lunch. I treated myself to a fish sandwich, fries, and chocolate milkshake from McDonalds, which I was over charged for.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

I dream in chocolate

Everyone has got me thinking about recipes today. I got an e-mail from a friend about recipes and planning meals. Normally I don't like posts that are just recipes. While sharing recipes is fun, Just seeing recipes on your blog can be...well boring. But Sunshine Scribe posted a recipe for world famous Chocolate Caramel Apple Pie. OMG. I HAVE to make this. Now she got me thinking in chocolate and all that is rich desserty goodness. Then she was entered into a dessert recipe contest Mamma M is holding. Everyone is dreaming in wafting steam of yummy things. I want chocolate!
Here is my own desserty goodness recipe.

Death by Chocolate aka Better than Sex Cake
1 box devil's food cake mix
1 jar carmel topping
1 12 oz Cool Whip
2 or 3 Heath or toffee bars

Bake the cake according to the box. While it is still warm poke the heck out of it with a toothpick and pour the carmel over it. The idea is to get the carmel to absorb into the cake. After it has completely cooled top with the Cool Whip. Crush the Heath bars. A food processer works well or place in a Ziplock baggie and whack with a rolling pin. Sprinkle the bits over the Cool Whip and serve. This is very rich so you will need milk and to walk 150 miles afterwards.

Every day Mark begs me to go outside. It has still been cool and breezy here, so I haven't brought him out. But yesterday, I couldn't refuse him again. He brought me his shoes, so I put them on. He brought me his jacket and practically put that on himself. Then he brought me his rain coat and did the same with that. After he was all bundled up he ran over to the patio doors and knocked on the glass until I took him out. He played outside for almost an hour! Just running around exploring every stone and twig. I showed him the tulips coming up and he thought was the coolest. He went from sprout to sprout feeling them. We have a tiny creek running throught the back of our yard. There is usually only water in it during the spring thaw. We sat beside that and watched the water flow for a good 20 minutes. It was a blast. The funny thing is that when Mark was ready to come in, he run over to the porch steps and asked to be picked up. I carried him into the porch and he walked right up to the back door and knocked until I openned it! This morning he was begging to go out again but I am going to wait until this afternoon when it is warmer. We host a block party every year and I want to hand out fliers for input as to the date. Mark can come take a walk with me.

My hand is fine. I feel like such a wimp for making such a big deal about a scrape. I will spare you the gorry details and pictures. Soffice to say that a remaining peice of skin had to be removed. It is a good thing Gabriel is a First Responder. He is like a walking first aid font of knowledge. I did finish some dishes last night. I stole a disposible glove from Gabriel's stash and keep the water level low.

Mark is up already. That was a short nap. TTFN

Tuesday, April 04, 2006


I just deleted the tagboard. Nobody was using it anyway. Does this help with the pop-ups? I have a blocker, so I never even see the pop-ups.

Glass doesn't love me.

I have always had bad experiences breaking glass. Today I broke a glass by washing it. My hand was inside wiping it when the glass just sheered in half. It shaved a slice of skin 1/2 in by 1/4 in off the back of my hand. Fun.
The worst experience I have had was when I was cleaning out a votive holder with a butter knife. Yes, I know it sounds like a bad idea now. The knife slipped and actually went right through the bottom of the holder pushing chunks of glass into my hand. I thought that we had it cleaned out, but a couple of months later the spot still had pain. I had to have my hand sliced back open to remove a piece of glass the size of a pencil eraser. At least that was my left hand. Today's incident was my right. While it doesn't hurt, it is bandaged up.
The bittersweet part is that I HAD to do dishes today because we were out of plates and silverware. I had put it off for 2 days and now it was necessary. However with a big gash on my hand and a bunch of bandaids, I won't be able to stick my hand in water. At least I got the dinner plates done first.

Gabriel brought me home a rose last night. He is such a sweet hubby.

Mark keeps hinting, or begging, to go outside. But it has been so blustery and cold so far this week. I don't dare take him out. He has never had an ear infection, and I don't want to start now. If only the wind would die down we could go out.

I joined an online group Matching Moms before I brought my blog back to life in January. With Matching Moms you can chat anonymously chat with other members in your own zip code, so you can choose to meet in person. It was my first attempt to reach out on the internet for friends and adult life. I sent out a hand for of "Hi, I'm Stephanie" messages and received 2 replies. The first mom I instantly clicked with. She was looking for the same non-commitment, I-need-adult-interaction type friendship. We never met but if we never do that is fine too. Getting an e-mail out of the blue saying "How are things going?" is nice.
BUT, the second mom I having issues with and I need advice. After 2 messages back in Feb she proposed a playdate. Being the shy wuss that I am, I was taken back and asked as nicely as I could to get to know each other first. After that I became busy, like mommies do, and I haven't sent or received any messages in a couple of months. Last week I sent a "How are you doing?" message to both moms and received this reply from mom #2.

"Sorry it took me awhile to respond I had to have my laptop repaired. My kids are doing well. I hope yours are as well. I was wondering when you would like to get together. Isabella would love to get out and run around with someone her age. We could go to the lil play land in the mall or there is a small kids park over by 3rd ave. "

How do I respond? We had chatted any more than the first time I declined. On the one hand, setting up the date would be ok. I am not afraid that she is a serial killer or anything. But I also don't know her from Jane Doe or anything about her. And I really don't need a relationship that is full commitment and setting up playdates 3 times a week. I like being the shy little mole that I am. Not being the queen of the social ring suits me. And blogging regularly now fills my need for adult friendship and interaction. So am I over reacting or do I gently dump her? If so how? Do I just ignore her message? Ugh!

Monday, April 03, 2006

Daylight Savings Time is the cure-all

Waking up of your own power is the wierdest feeling in the world. That happened to me on Sunday for the first time in almost 2 years. I opened my eyes at 8:00 to nothing. No alarm clock. No baby knocking on the wall calling to me to get him out of the crib. Nothing. My eyes just opened. Weird.

This of course is due to Daylight Savings, which I have been highly anticipating. This means that the sun rises an hour later and Mark doesn't wake up until, oh say, 7 am or later! He has been waking with the dawn and actually getting up before 6 a couple of times before DST. Yay! More quiet time in the morning to catch up on blogs. I have learned to not post until nap time though. At 6 am my brain is too tired to write. I have tried a couple of times and come up with nothing. But at 10 am or so I can think of many things to blog about. It is funny how my mind works. When something happens that is blog worthy, I start writing it in my head immediately. I told you, I need a 12 step program.

Gabriel had a bunch of overtime, so the weekend didn't seem any different than the week. Saturday I tried an Asian chicken soup recipe that I have been dyeing to try. I have been saving my budget for 3 weeks to buy the exotic ingredients. Like shitakki mushrooms and fresh ginger and Chinese noodles. Well, it didn't turn out. I over cooked it so the ginger and garlic flavors were all but gone. Gabriel hated it although he never said so and finished his bowlful. I don't know if it was me or the recipe. I just cried. Like I said I was planning it for 3 weeks and it was so disappointing. I was already having mood swings and emotional breakdowns that day. The soup just finished me off.

I was in a mood swinging funk for most of the weekend and pre-weekend. I seem to have snapped out of it on Sunday. I think sleeping well helped. It has been really hard with Gabriel working such long hours the past week. A couple of times Mark has gone to bed for the night before he gets home. Pretty much all Gabriel has time to do is shower, eat, and watch about an hour of TV with me before it is bedtime. 6-6:30 is a long day, but it should only be one more week. Then we can go back to 7-3:30.

Mark has missed daddy too. I can tell. We have been making his bedtime lenient so he can play with daddy a little. Sunday Gabriel only had to work 6-10 am and Mark went nuts. He only wanted to play with daddy and go by daddy and do what daddy was doing. For about 30 or 40 minutes in the afternoon they had a pillow fight. Daddy would toss the throw pillows at Mark just hard enough to knock him down. Then Mark would pick up the pillow and charge daddy to retaliate. Once he fluffed daddy with the pillow, daddy would snatch it and Mark would take off running and the whole thing repeated itself.


Saturday, April 01, 2006

The Bathtub Test

Nothing very exciting to post about today. Last night I did dishes, we had tuna helper for dinner, blah, blah, blah. Nothing exciting planned for today either. Aren't you glad that you visited?

It seems like my posts have gotten longer and longer recently. Not that it is a problem. I think that it shows growth in my writing abilities. Until today. Ugh, it is really bothering me that I can't think of something to blog about. So I guess I will give you some pics of Mark and a funny e-mail I got that I have been saving for just such an occasion.

It doesn't hurt to take a hard look at yourself from time to time, and this should help get you started. During a visit to the mental asylum, a visitor asked the Director what the criterion was which defined whether a patient should be institutionalized. Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, and then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub". "Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup. "No." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?"

Mark helping Daddy outside on one of the first nice days of Spring.